Vice

So I'm invited to the NZ vice christmas party.... And I don't know if I should to go or not. After spending so many years avoiding situations where I might feel uncool or out of place, this pops up. The Cool of indie cool. Maybe I'm scared I'll like it, maybe I'm still the weird kid. The party will be filled with all different likes of people, most I don't know, so I know I won't stick out. I won't be recognisable, not in that uber cool, well dress flock of extroverts. This may then be my perfect opportunity for me to dress up and meet some people, I'll just be a face in the crowd. If I can get over the crowd factor and try and have a sip of alcohol to let my legs lose I could do it. Come on say it with me now, "I can do it". Then what do you wear to such an event. It's the one time I am not going to look over dressed, no matter how excited I get. But still... FUCK. I promised to try and take every opportunity that came my way, to take advantage of the contacts I have, to finally make a name for myself, to be proud of who i am, proud enough to let the public judge. And why shouldn't I, why should I have to be so protective of what other people think of me, why is it my problem? I'm not a violent, abusive, harmful or vile person, so I shouldn't be locked up, not even in my own head. So I'll plan to go and hope to enjoy the experience, even if thats all it is, an experience...